Well Julian is spending the weekend at his dads and while I love the little hellion to death, it is nice to be able to breathe occasionally. Not to mention catching up on the impossible such as cleaning, laundry and the important stuff... like a nap ;) Things which are doable when julian is around but definitely alot easier when he isnt. I used to feel such guilt when he went to his dads for the weekend and I "relaxed". I used to think it meant I must not love him if I didn't want to be around him all the time. I have come to accept that mommy time is allowed, to not feel guilty for wanting a bath without interruptions, and that sometimes it is good for us both to be apart. I have a much better appreciation (and envy) for families with both parents there. I never got pregnant with the intention of doing this solo, but sometimes life throws a fast ball and you have to catch and make do with what you can. As much as I can not deal with his dad, I would NEVER trade having Julian for anything! If it meant doing it over and over I would, as long as it meant having this wonderful ball of energy to love and raise!
On a side note tho.. I am so excited! I get to go see Phantom of the Opera for my birthday! Granted my birthday isn't until Aug 1 but they are here in town from mid May through mid June and my mom got me tickets. I haven't been to the Ballet or anything artsy in like forever and I do so miss it! The last time I saw Phantom was in San Fransisco in I believe 1989 or 1990 with a friend from work. I can't wait!!
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being a single mom is hard - I did it for 9 years, so I can relate to your entirely - mommy time is DEF allowed and needed!
Phantom - wow im jealous!
I know what you mean about needing alone time, I have already decided that when I do have kids they are going to spend at least one week each year at Grandma's house (and hopefully more). My Mom will be thrilled since we don't live close enough that they would be able to visit often. I have a single friend in AZ who's daughter spends two months each summer at her Grandma's and loves it. I am hoping to be able to build up to that if my folks can take it!
And YAY for Phantom!
absolutely take Mommy time when you can and keep the thought of the Phantom in your mind as something to be looking forward to.. both for the show itself and the "mommy-reward (birthday present)" along the way. was going to say finish line but there is no finish line for a Mom... even when they reach (almost) 21.
We did it for the weekend of June 14th.. all I can say is that is SUPPOSE to be julian's dad's weekend.. IF it falls on the time he does his two week overseas thing or cancels I will just SCREAM! He is notorious for screwing up all plans I lay down *angry* Julian may find himself for the first time with a babysitter or maybe I will have to see if my sister or friend julianna can watch him. I WILL be going! *sigh*
Carol... when we were growing up each of us looked forward to the 2 weeks we got in Missouri with my aunt :) it was our treat when I think it was the age of 8 or 10? I forget which..
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