Crawls away and hides

Ok.. Now I know it is said the more your child loves you the more they test you. But is there ever a point where your child can love you to much?? *sigh* Some days Julian's behavior just goes beyond the extreme :( Yesterday was one of the ones that fall into the "refund please" category of having enough :/

He woke up out of sorts. He threw minor fits all morning and then the turning point seemed to be when the cat jumped off the computer table and landed on julian's foot. Yep, you guessed right, claws were out and toes got scratched :( we spent 30 minutes crying full sobs. He wanted to be cuddled.. then threw my arms off yet still rocked. then he told me to go away and sat and cried into the rug. when I went to leave he threw a fit because I wasnt holding him. *shakes head* I should have known we had hit that stage where nothing is working and nothing can help. We left to get some lunch and came home and the simple request of asking him to remove his shoes, made everything come undone. he screamed for an hour, hitting, head butting, kicking... finally I removed his trains and put them in the closet. I told him he could have them back when he took them off. after me having to wander about and try not to get hurt (me not him mind you) he finally sat down and took them off. I gave him back his trains and things were fine for awhile. Of course he calmed down just before HOPE Consulting came for thier visit (behavorist group). HOPE has been out to evaluate his behavior issues.

Then later a nap set it off, he didnt want to. On fridays I usually insist because we go out to dinner with family and he isnt fit for public if he doesnt nap. All hell broke loose again and after 2 hours of him constantly hitting, screaming etc I lost it and ended up crying. Called my mom and she told julian that she didnt want to see him if he was throwing a fit. What does he do then? calms down and stops crying! WTF??? grrrrrr we did end up going to dinner and he was asleep by the time we got home.

I think I could probably handle the fits easier if he wasnt so damn violent and I wasnt trying to cope myself. Maybe parents without bipolar or even parents that have both in the household can deal but for me there are times where it seems like I am losing the battle.