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ok how the hell do you tell a very social 3 year old that he will not be seeing his friends or school for 3 months??

I am at a complete loss here. :(

I am going to try and see if at least Julian can come once a week so he can interact and allow me to pick up the worksheets etc they will use the rest of the week and then do them here at home with him. And also let him attend the field trips and special days they have coming up in those 3 months.

I know that Child Support Services will eventually get the back support paid to me, but if they seize Glen's tax refund again I still won't see any of the funds till February at earliest and does us no good now. And somehow I can't see the school letting me run up a $1080 tab with them :(

Sigh :(

I didn't realize.. but with glen off work as of beginning of October, I won't have tuition for julian for October, November, December :( thats 3 months!! *cry* I really hope I get this casual position at the library for a bit cause I would rather julian stay where he is very happy and loves then drag him out for 3 months :( it is so unfair that the kids are the ones that suffer when the other parent.. forgoes his responsibility *angry* I understand the military screwed up.. but he knew this way early.. he also has the option of putting it on his credit card ( the support payment ) or do other options and he isn't/won't.

BUT on a happier note... :) after a repeat mammogram and ultrasound cancer has been ruled out from my breasts and appears to just be a common occurrence of enlarged lymph nodes which they say happens with a cold etc. *whew*

Word to the wise... If you are going to lie make sure your cell phone is turned off!

ok tonight is one of glen's nights with julian. Well I guess around 7:30 tonight glen's dad called complaining his tv wouldn't work and asked glen to drop everything and come over. Glen had sat there when I dropped julian off and told julian they were going to play all night. So glen called me and asked if he could bring julian home early. I asked why he couldn't go over tomorrow since he didn't have julian then. After many excuses, I then told glen to go ahead and bring julian home because apparently his dad was more important then his son. For those who might think this is harsh, well.. you don't know alot of the history here *sigh* Not more then 10 minutes later Glen called back to let me know that julian would be home at the normal time and that he had called his dad and said he would come over tomorrow instead. In the background you could tell he was driving. About 20 minutes later glen called back.. rather his PHONE did. Glen's phone is notorious for this and has let me here quite a few interesting conversations on accident. He nudges up against something and his phone dials last number called. Mind you this happens sometimes at 1am 4am etc and is mostly a big pain in the butt!! This time tho as I listen (I always do to see what I might hear) I hear glen in the background tell julian he would carry him into grandpa's house. then julian said he had to take his transformers in.

My point being.. is that IF you are going to lie.. first off DON'T DO IT WITH MY SON!!! and second off.. you might want to turn off an errant phone cause it will hang you more times then not. *shakes head and fumes*

sorry... just needed to vent and share something that proves once again... some people are dumber then a fencepost and keep getting dumber :P

Ok Cute Funny Story :)

oh I have to share a funny story.

I picked julian up from school today. As we were walking out the door he told me his shoe was unfastened (velcro) I looked down and yep it was.. but then noticed his shoes ALSO on the wrong feet lol.. I took them off and noticed hmm.. his socks were inside out too. not only THAT but he informed me he switched socks with blake (a kid in class) so we had to go back inside and swap socks back with blake and then put his shoes back on.. the right feet :P

So much for the holidays

I warn you now.. rant involved below!







Just got word from my son's dad that he will be off orders (military) till Mid November. Which means in essence... I will not get a child support check for November or December. which means I am royally screwed. :( My SSDI will let us pay rent and such but it also means everything else will either be delayed in paying (like electric, cable etc) or removed.. like Julian's preschool. I had been thinking of applying for a part time casual position at the library across the street from Julian's school but now I am torn. If I do apply and get the position, that would be extra money. but to take the position julian has to be in school. which then means all that extra money will be used for Julian's tuition hence.. no extra money coming in. Now i understand why a good friend of mine was saying she actually had less money now that she was working then when she wasn't. *sigh* And no check in December means pretty much no Christmas goodies for julian either *sigh* I know I shouldn't complain when others don't have as much, but Julian loves his school, I love the mommy breaks and my bipolar really doesn't do well under financial stress what so ever :(

Just a little update

Well the circus went great! Julian definitely does NOT have a fear of clowns :) he was a little restless at the very beginning but was awed by the motorcycles driving together in that big ball cage they had and also by the motorcycle that drove above us. We could not have asked for better seats then the ones we got! turns out the way that section was angled we had front row seats. literally! It was awesome! I was very glad we decided to keep the tickets and go. Also was very happy that ticketmaster had been able to change our tickets from Friday to Saturday, resulting in better seats then I had bought the first time ;)

today is the last time Chris, our behavorist from SCOE comes over. She was the last remaining person from SCOE to stay and now she too says goodbye. Don't get me wrong. I am VERY glad julian no longer needs services, but it is still sad to lose friends we have been seeing since almost birth. I miss their company and chats each week :(

As for me.. turning older brings all those wonderful things (sarcasm dripping here.. can you hear it?) Mammograms, Hot Flashes.. yep at age 38 I am starting menopause (bleah and grrrr) Dr told me that I am perimenopausal which means I get the hot flashes (melt city) and all the lovely mood swings (like I needed help in this area????) but still get to keep my monthly cycles.. which due to the above no longer are normal time frame (sigh) Also that lovely thing called a mammogram... which I failed *unsure* They had found specks across my chest a year or so ago but since I was still nursing they decided to wait in case it was milk glands plugged up. Well.. apparently not. I go in for an u/s on wednesday now. Prelim reports from Dr said non cancerous but I am still worried :( I will be sure to let you all know the results as soon as I have them.

My story didn't win, but then it was pretty much a popularity contest.. if you knew alot of people.. you got lots of votes. One time that being a little bit of a loner didn't help (sigh) But I was proud to be chosen as a finalist and I will keep working on finding an illustrator and work on getting it published!

hugs n love for now!

Fun times ahead

Well first off study went pretty good. I was so proud of julian. he sat for over an hour with the lady answering questions on items, tracing and building things, etc. He definitely has surpassed his age group in a few things :D the hardest part was the blood draw at the end. I think with him had they done things a little differently it might have been less traumatic. they had him lying on me with my legs trapping his and my arms holding his and they covered what was going on behind a book. IMHO they should have let him come back when they did mine, had him sitting up and let him see what they were doing without trapping him. But then it is different for every kid I guess and they do what they know has worked in past *sigh*

Tomorrow morning tho we are off to the circus!! yay :) Julian has never been and I think the last time I was, according to mom and sis, was when I was little so it basically is like the first time for both of us :) he hasn't shown a fear of clowns so hopefully he won't have a problem when we are there *crosses fingers*

I will update when we get back.. however I have no camera *cry* so I won't be able to post pics :(

Autism Study

Tomorrow morning (friday) Julian is partaking in a autism study through the M.I.N.D. Institute. They are studying a group of kids: autistic, developmentally delayed and normal development. Julian was referred by ALTA Regional but no longer is "delayed". However after calling us the first time, they called us back again and wanted him to participate still. They are curious as to why he was delayed and how he is doing now that he is listed as "normal development".

I already had a 3 hour phone interview several weeks back and now this is the in clinic study portion. They are taking hair samples from both julian and I, also a sample of his first hair cut, blood sample and urine samples as well from him and I. They will give him a physical checkup and also a development "test" to see where he is placing.

I have the option of getting the results of the study when it is over and I am very curious to see it. I also hope we get a copy of the genetic testing they did at birth with him.

I will update more tomorrow after the exam.

Sick again & catching up

While julian LOVES preschool? apparently it doesn't feel the same way. :P Once again we have an ear infection. Hasn't he been there long enough YET to develop immunity? bleah!

on a lighter note...

He really DOES love preschool :) He has been at this school in Folsom since he was about 2 1/2. They were the only one that I knew of that had a 2yr old preschool group and that I had had personal experience with through my nephew going there for 4 years. He is doing math at a 4 year old level :) and has made bunches of friends :)

On a sadder note...

We have said goodbye to our Early Head Start teacher Corrine *sigh* and also will be saying goodbye to our in-home behaviorist, Chris, from SCOE as well this month. :(

Other news...

I entered a children's book writing contest in august and was chosen as one of the 5 finalists. The winner will get their story illustrated and published! This has been a life long dream of mine and it would be so cool to have this be achieved! If not, then I will be on the look out for an illustrator, because I refuse to put this story on a dusty shelf and leave it to rot. If interested in reading (and voting ;)) you can see it here. You do not have to live in Sacramento, nor be a member to vote. My story is "It's bedtime and I sleep alone" by penguinsimone (they have screennames listed instead of names for some reason.

http://www.sacmomsclub.com/home/StaticPage/67

Hope all are doing well and I would love to talk or email with everyone soon :)

Hugs and Love
Simone