Rite of passage...

Well my son has officially passed into childhood... he went to his first birthday party today. It was at a new Bounce House that just opened in Folsom and the kids went wild! That part was great.. four of the kids, my son, the birthday boy and two other friends from school were inseparable.. it was like watching the four musketeers :P And it is nice to finally put a face to who Jack was, since julian always is saying Jack did this and Jack did that. However he had such a hard time when it came to the pizza/cake time.. and the real hard time of watching the birthday boy open gifts and not get to touch :( poor kid. How do you explain to a 2yr old that his birthday is coming up really soon? *sigh* The parents of this little boy hired a professional photographer and I have offered to put them together on a website. I personally am hoping some good ones were taken of my son ;)

The little things...

Well Julian is spending the weekend at his dads and while I love the little hellion to death, it is nice to be able to breathe occasionally. Not to mention catching up on the impossible such as cleaning, laundry and the important stuff... like a nap ;) Things which are doable when julian is around but definitely alot easier when he isnt. I used to feel such guilt when he went to his dads for the weekend and I "relaxed". I used to think it meant I must not love him if I didn't want to be around him all the time. I have come to accept that mommy time is allowed, to not feel guilty for wanting a bath without interruptions, and that sometimes it is good for us both to be apart. I have a much better appreciation (and envy) for families with both parents there. I never got pregnant with the intention of doing this solo, but sometimes life throws a fast ball and you have to catch and make do with what you can. As much as I can not deal with his dad, I would NEVER trade having Julian for anything! If it meant doing it over and over I would, as long as it meant having this wonderful ball of energy to love and raise!

On a side note tho.. I am so excited! I get to go see Phantom of the Opera for my birthday! Granted my birthday isn't until Aug 1 but they are here in town from mid May through mid June and my mom got me tickets. I haven't been to the Ballet or anything artsy in like forever and I do so miss it! The last time I saw Phantom was in San Fransisco in I believe 1989 or 1990 with a friend from work. I can't wait!!

Question to ponder: Do you lose hair from stress, or is it the result of pulling it out in frustration?

Or maybe my question is a catch-22 moot point? *lol* Sigh... Why is it when your child is sick, you have to be sick too? There should be some universal law (Murphy's be hanged!) that won't allow a parent and their child to be sick simultaneously! At least julian, health wise, is feeling better. His infection seems to be backing off. The lab results came back showing E-coli. Excuse me? Wanna run that by me again lab? Sheesh! How the heck? Any number of possibilities I assume but *shakes head* sheesh!

Behavior wise... Julian as usual is off the charts :( Nap time has become a literal war zone, and I seem to be the usual casualty :/ I know he loves me! He always tells me so, kisses me and gives me hugs... yet at the same time this little man can hit, kick, scratch, smack, bite.. you name it with out any conscience getting in the way! He doesn't seem to (or maybe want to?) understand that it just isn't funny when you hurt someone *sigh* I have tried to raise him with options, feeling that spanking, flicking or stuff of that nature is wrong because I can't understand how he is to learn not to hit etc if someone is doing that to him in response. This child changes his mood (and mind) more then I do at the height of a manic swing! I have a bad (sad) feeling he did not escape my Bipolar. Only time will tell I guess.

He is at his dad's this weekend so hopefully at least I can get well before Sunday night, or at least healthier. Rest is definitely on the agenda (squished somewhere in there between laundry, house cleaning and all those wonderful impossible things when julian is running around like a mad chicken :P)

When kids are sick (sigh)

I feel for my little one. He once again has an infection in his little boy parts :( It seems since we started school he has had one illness after another. As if he needed something else to cause him difficulties! When he gets out of schedule too, man does life get interesting here at the house! He gets so frustrated and mad and I am the one who is always blessed (can you hear the sarcasm here?) to witness his meltdowns.

Today we went to get his prescriptions filled together since his school told me he was not welcomed until he had been on antibiotics for minimum 24 hours. After arriving at the pharmacy, I discovered the Dr. who helped us the second time in the ER didn't sign the prescription form, didn't date it, nothing! So after being on hold for an hour with my son's Dr.'s office, then being transferred to the ER triage nurse, who then transferred me again to the pediatric ER nurse, I got left on terminal hold.. and then my cell phone battery died. *head desk*

Son had had enough, I was fed up and he melts down full force in the car. Prompting a trip home instead of to the park like we had planned. Let me tell you, full force screaming of a 2yr old in a closed car is enough to deafen the deafest! :( And no.. never did get the prescription fixed! *sigh* I need a vacation! :P